The title may sound geeky but this morning I felt so low and sad.
The nurses receiving in the station I was assigned to last night sucked all my energy and happiness.
For crying out loud they just can't stop complaining about anything. It was already 8 in the morning, and they still haven't finished the endorsement. It might be exhaustion but I wasn't feeling tired really. In fact, if you'd ask me to run the whole block of the hospital, I still could. But all this energy was being sucked out by these insensitive nurses not thinking you are way past duty hour and had to endure a long graveyard shift.
Usually and all the time I just smile and keep my happy thoughts and positive energy around me. However it wasn't the case this morning. I couldn't even lift my chin. I would smile for a moment but slump right back the next second. I try to laugh at the slightest comic thing then I frown knowing that my own grin is lying.
My colleagues (and i also like to call them friends) keep saying it's okay. I keep that in mind. But my head is low.
What I am saying is that I never felt this way before. I guess at age 24 going on 25 (thanks Jasmine for correcting my age) I still have a lot of emotions to feel. The feeling was different. It was a mix of disappointment and sadness and mental exhaustion. It was negative yeah, but the emotion will make me a wiser and more experienced individual.
As my article now moves further still from the title, I am still not over this slump feeling. But I know I will recover through some of my favourite things. So thank you Formula One, thank you games, thank you movies, thank you music. Of course, I also pray for help and guidance. Oh and I forgot to mention: thank you 3 days off. And I hope when I come back from duty, I can do what is properly due to my patients: 100% care from me.
The nurses receiving in the station I was assigned to last night sucked all my energy and happiness.
For crying out loud they just can't stop complaining about anything. It was already 8 in the morning, and they still haven't finished the endorsement. It might be exhaustion but I wasn't feeling tired really. In fact, if you'd ask me to run the whole block of the hospital, I still could. But all this energy was being sucked out by these insensitive nurses not thinking you are way past duty hour and had to endure a long graveyard shift.
Usually and all the time I just smile and keep my happy thoughts and positive energy around me. However it wasn't the case this morning. I couldn't even lift my chin. I would smile for a moment but slump right back the next second. I try to laugh at the slightest comic thing then I frown knowing that my own grin is lying.
My colleagues (and i also like to call them friends) keep saying it's okay. I keep that in mind. But my head is low.
What I am saying is that I never felt this way before. I guess at age 24 going on 25 (thanks Jasmine for correcting my age) I still have a lot of emotions to feel. The feeling was different. It was a mix of disappointment and sadness and mental exhaustion. It was negative yeah, but the emotion will make me a wiser and more experienced individual.
As my article now moves further still from the title, I am still not over this slump feeling. But I know I will recover through some of my favourite things. So thank you Formula One, thank you games, thank you movies, thank you music. Of course, I also pray for help and guidance. Oh and I forgot to mention: thank you 3 days off. And I hope when I come back from duty, I can do what is properly due to my patients: 100% care from me.
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