Bublé Night (originally written on Oct. 27, 2010)

After a tough work week, I have decided October 27, 2010 to be my Bublé Night. It’s been quite a while since I listened to pure Bublé music. Sav usually chooses the playlist with various artists but now as my younger sister is hanging out in another room (exercising as I presume), I have the chance to play all his songs.

To those who don’t know Michael Bublé, he is a Canadian jazz singer. I’ve followed him ever since I heard his first single entitled “home”. From then on, he became my favorite artist and always listened to his songs. You would think that his voice and singing is that of an old man, but he is just in his early 30’s and just as young as most artists, it’s just that his type of music and most of his songs are old fashioned.

Well, call me old-fashioned, too but jazz soothes and I am lured to this kind of music. Moreover, jazz is almost always romantic. I am just 24 and a lot of people my age love dancing-up beat, acoustic, pop, rock, RnB music. But jazz is me.

Anyway, my MP4 now plays “I’ve Got You Under My Skin”, a Frank Sinatra original. Its tempo is a bit upbeat and I loved the song the first time I heard it. Piano, trumpet, saxophone, bass, drums, and of course, Bublé’s voice. The combination makes me feel really relaxed and happy right this moment. The lyrics of course when taken literally is weird but everyone knows songs are like that. They make you think and their words create somewhat like magic phrases giving those who listen creative imagination and a burst of feeling which depends on the music and lyrics of the song.

It is already cold and dark now as I gaze out our window. I wonder when winter will come. Work has been tough and tiring this week.

The cool breeze circulated by our fan makes some of my muscles tense, on the contrary, my mind gets relaxed upon hearing another classic  Bublé music “Mack the Knife”. I bet a lot don’t know the song even existed, I confess that I don’t really understand the meaning of the lyrics, but I love the music. I have still thirty minutes before sleeping and ending my day. And those thirty will be consumed by listening to the jazzy music of Michael Bublé. My mind is calm and relaxed now, thus I presume to have sweet dreams tonight, thanks to my Bublé night.

N.B. Now that it is June 27th 2011, I am in a lot of stress and jazz helps me ease things a bit.

Real-life Dementors

The title may sound geeky but this morning I felt so low and sad.

The nurses receiving in the station I was assigned to last night sucked all my energy and happiness.
For crying out loud they just can't stop complaining about anything. It was already 8 in the morning, and they still haven't finished the endorsement. It might be exhaustion but I wasn't feeling tired really. In fact, if you'd ask me to run the whole block of the hospital, I still could. But all this energy was being sucked out by these insensitive nurses not thinking you are way past duty hour and had to endure a long graveyard shift.

Usually and all the time I just smile and keep my happy thoughts and positive energy around me. However it wasn't the case this morning. I couldn't even lift my chin. I would smile for a moment but slump right back the next second. I try to laugh at the slightest comic thing then I frown knowing that my own grin is lying.
My colleagues (and i also like to call them friends) keep saying it's okay. I keep that in mind. But my head is low.

What I am saying is that I never felt this way before. I guess at age 24 going on 25 (thanks Jasmine for correcting my age) I still have a lot of emotions to feel. The feeling was different. It was a mix of disappointment and sadness and mental exhaustion. It was negative yeah, but the emotion will make me a wiser and more experienced individual.

As my article now moves further still from the title, I am still not over this slump feeling. But I know I will recover through some of my favourite things. So thank you Formula One, thank you games, thank you movies, thank you music. Of course, I also pray for help and guidance. Oh and I forgot to mention: thank you 3 days off. And I hope when I come back from duty, I can do what is properly due to my patients: 100% care from me.