Stones Do Melt

Thought I had a stone heart
Unbreakable, insensitive
Show me kindness
And love and warmth
I return back the favor
But not all
I hide
I have much more to give
Yet I don't give in
I am unemotional
You hug me
But I don't
You say I love you
I do too
But not in words
No
Because I am ironhearted
I am a stone

Throw everything at me
And I wouldn't care
Punch me, kick me
Treat me like trash
I won't care
Scare me, dump me
Throw rocks at me
Slice me, hit me
Tear me down
I feel nothing
Because my heart is made of stone

But you were too much
You are a pernicious fire
Enough to melt my walls
You stepped on my guts
You showed me disgrace
You spit in my face
I stood for what was right
Yet you showed disrespect
I fell
I cracked
My stone started to crumble
First, a tingle
Then an ache
The pain grew
And I can't hold any longer
Pain, despair
I am bleeding
Sadness overwhelming
My heart was breaking
Yet I stood back up
Not to fight
But to stand my ground
I am human
You are too
You shout at me
Call me stupid,
Imbecile, dumb,
Whatever, you name it
I give you back
Silence instead
For one can only share
What they have
And that is
What I possess
My heart is
Shattering like hell
I will not fight
But I will pray
Because clearly
You do not know
Love at its best
You have the riches
Yes
Yet you are so poor
I pity you
Because you don't know
What is respect
By displaying arrogance
People will not treat you
With kindness
But rather with dread
I am pouring now
My defenses are down
I am shivering
But I keep on walking
I am scarred
But I remain tall
To you who broke me
I wish you
Kindness
Patience
And respect.
I hope other people
Bless you with more
Virtues too
Because you need these
More than I do

If only I had a wish
It is that you
Don't hurt
Other people
The way you did me
Don't share your arrogance
Your hatred
Your ignorance
We have one life
To live
To love.

I am a stone.
I broke down.

Stones do melt.

Half Day Off: Would I Spend It Wisely?

Yeah, a half day it is, coz I spent the morning just sleeping on my bed. I was supposed to jog today, but laziness crept and I slept for roughly 11 hours.

Now I have the chance to spend this off worthwhile firstly by cooking paksiw. Then, to replace my missed jog, would probably walk around the block to stretch my legs and get some air and alone time out of the hostel.

I would clean the room, also. And do some laundry. Then after that I would fix files in the PC and my phone and yeah, read a book.

I hope I can do all of this things in half a day. Already, a few minutes have been spent by composing this diary-like-blog entry.

This entry was written mainly for the purpose of seeing if I could finish all my planned tasks. So why not use a task checkist app instead, you say? I dunno. I just feel like writing something.

Hence, I will return to see this blog at the end of the day.

See you then...

After 18 hours....
I mostly did what I said except for the reading part and the cleaning was very light. But it was a productive off. I got to watch survivor Philippines which had a really interesting episode, and a movie too. So I was delighted with my off.

Now I'm back on duty.